The blurry picture you see above was taken on the set of ”So Icey” (I’m in the green baseball hat) back in 2006. At the time I was at the worst physical, mental and spirtual state of my entire life. I weighed a whopping 230 pds. I slept 2 maybe 3 hours a night on a regular basis. I would go days without any sense of spirituality, that means no church, prayers, meditation…nothing. I say now when I try to sum it all up…I was simply ABSENT FROM MY TRUE SELF!
The SECRET HERE is more relevant than ever before…ALL THAT GLITTERS IS NOT GOLD (OR ICE). During that time, I was in a place where I wanted to turn that corner again with my career, it was time to “show and prove” “make a move” because all eyes were on me. I was more worried about what my family thought and everybody else that I had lost complete sight of what I really wanted. I was stressed and needed a way out. The world I was living in but did not come from led me with mottos that were clear “Money Power Respect…the Key to Life”.
One day I was at my producer’s house after having just finished the 2nd edit for BET for the video “So Icey” when I got a 911 call from my mom to come to the hospital and see my dad before he passed away. I raced out to say goodbye to the greatest man I ever knew! A man who stood for everything that was opposite of the way I was living my life at the time.
Only 2 weeks after my dad passed, I was called to do a video for Jeezy called “Trap or Die”. This is a video for a song many have heard but only few have seen because Jeezy was so disgusted by the outcome, it was never released. That day was the worst shoot of my career. The police actually shut us down! They made us pack up and leave. The same police who always let us bend the rules a little were not budging this time and we couldn’t understand why. I had to go onto Jeezy’s tour bus and give him the final word. I left and went to my car and just cried with what I thought was failure. I didn’t know the secret. The next day on the news we would see why the police really had shut us down because they had just found a dead body from a shooting involving Gucci Mane which implicated Jeezy in a set up plot. My “So Icey” video footage was all over CNN!
Remember, on any given day with any given event in your life, there are so many forces coming together that may influence the outcome, THE WAY IT LOOKS ON THE SURFACE MAY NOT BE WHAT IS AT THE CORE, be careful not to draw the wrong conclusions. For many people these are hard economic times. Friends, family and co-workers might be acting differently; and you yourself might find your morals and values tested like never before. Get back to the core of your “true self” and your SECRET will reveal treasures MORE VALUABLE THAN GOLD or ICE 
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